Some of my thoughts

Here are some of my thoughts for this Thursday afternoon-

-My love/hate relationship with my dogs is one that I have been pondering lately. They are the cutest dogs I have ever owned they are also the most destructive annoying dogs. I am not sure why I have allowed as much as I have with their shenanigans!! I am not sure why I agreed and even sought out this scenario in my life again. They do bring me some small piece of joy or I am sure I wouldn't keep them. However, this morning when they had eaten a whole pack of new bubble gum I was considering doing alot of things to these 4 legged creatures and these things were not nice.

-My thoughts on all writers being egocentric - I had this thought the other day. All writers have to have a certain sense of ego in order to think that their ideas are first of all good enough to be published in a book and second of all great enough ideas that people should pay money to read them. This thought had me a bit perplexed once again about my aspirations of becoming a published author and even why I have a blog. 

-Friends and some disappointments that I have finally come to realize in that area of life are this; some of my friends that have left stronger imprints than others still influence me today even though I haven't seen or heard from them in a while. One friend I have used to love to write with a plain old Bic pen , still to this day I like to write with a Bic pen because of her and when school supply shopping time comes around that is one item that is always on my list. Other friends I wonder was it just that we went to the same church that even barely classified us as friends. I am excited that Louie is blogging about this topic because it's something that I have been thinking alot about lately. Also, I am quickly learning in my 30's that every person who wants to be my friend maybe I don't want to be theirs and how to navigate through that one has been interesting. There are circles of friendships. The inner circle for me consists of my family first which right there makes it a big circle, then a middle circle of friends that are like family to me and that I share everything with, and finally an outer surface circle or what I would like to say is the acquaintance circle of friends.

-Music, why have I been given so many songs and what should I do with them. Why are we given certain gifts without the time to really pursue them. Will I ever move these songs out from the notebook and on to a recording. Dunno. I am however looking forward to going back to my Uncle's recording studio and getting some songs that my Grandmother wrote recorded. 

-The current political thoughts, honestly isn't this over already? But in reality I told Mo the other night that I think either of these guys are crazy for signing up for this job. You could not pay me enough money... no way would I ever take this job. Not on your life!! Also to the shock and awe of those of you who think I am an Obama groupie I will have you know that I do believe both of these gentlemen would do a fine enough job and I don't really care at this point. By that I mean, I won't be moving to Canada if Mc Cain does win. But he won't!! Last debate sure was interesting.

-Motivation, where it comes from , why it's lacking for me right now, and What can I do about that?

-Deja Vu's - This is my topic of research currently in my Psych class, lots of thoughts there. What are they really? Why do some have more than others and some none at all?

-School , I am so over it. Really, what's the point that I am going through all these hoops and for what? To get paid a measly teacher's salary. Sorry but I am just thinking it might not be worth it anymore. Although if Obama gets in, he has mention ECE several times in all his speeches and has some good plans for those of us pursuing that degree, hint hint Jessica :)

Those are them folks, hope you enjoyed the journey inside my brain for this week.

The "Fall" has begun

The leaves have begun to fall in our backyard. We have three gianormous trees on our property. These are trees that made the value of this house go up for me by about 10,000 dollars. That's how much I love trees surrounding my house. I distinctly remember telling my husband that part of why I didn't want to buy the brand new house we were looking at in North Valleys was because there are no trees in new neighborhoods. There is something about trees and the foilage they bring every fall that just makes my heart happy.

So I am sitting here in my living room, looking out my living room window right at the big tree whose colors are changing right before my eyes. Okay maybe not that quick but it seems with the crazy weather lately that they are changing quick. Something I tell my kids every fall is to pay attention to the trees everyday because before you know it the leaves will all be gone and so will all the colors.

I have described the autumn season before as God's natural fireworks. The colors explode in every tree and every year it's different. If you don't think we serve a creative God then you are sadly mistaken. 

Isaiah was so excited to see the leaves falling in the backyard that he first said, "Mom it's snowing" then he ran to the front of the house saying, "I am going to jump in the pile of leaves mom" but alas, the leaves on the tree in front have yet to fall. Weird. I told him that soon the leaves on the front tree would be falling but we have to wait until most have fallen off so we can make a huge pile to jump in.

I think I will jump in them this year!!

On turning into Ellen

My daughter has a boy from class over. 

Not sure how I feel about this and how different she is acting. She assures me that he is only a friend and I do believe she is telling me the truth because we talk about these things all the time and I happen to know who her real crush is on. So there!!

Anyhew, this boy was best friends with the boy Alex who died tragically last spring. I blogged a bit about that one and sorry if you missed it cause I don't know how to do the fancy thing where it will bring you to that blog so if you are interested you will just have to look. 

Emma was telling me that ever since Alex died this boy Kevin has been really sad and that she had overheard him telling one of his buddies the other day that he eats dinner alone most nights. His mom and dad work and older sister who is like 19 is never home. This really just broke my heart. I know God has strategically placed us in this neighborhood for a reason, more reasons than one, and there have been many reasons already revealed but this was like one loud gong going off inside my heart.

At the dinner table last night when Emma was telling her dad the same story he replied, "Well did you say, Good for you , bummer you eat alone every night. Stay warm and well-fed and then walk away" To which she cocked her head to his sarcasm, and said "What?" He then explained.

My brothers and sisters would say that I am turning into to my mother, Ellen because of this gesture of inviting him over for dinner, to which I would say,  SO BE IT!! 

Motivation Bug

I am getting the bug , the motivation bug to finish up my books and send them out. As of the last email from the publishers I have done a whole lot of nothing with them and the email sits in my inbox haunting me. Reminding me of what a big sissy I am for not sending in my scripts. Last night I had a thought that really motivated me. I can 't really put into words what it was that clicked but today after finishing up some homework I am going to blow the dust off of my scripts, go to the post office, and mail this baby out.

It really has been a strange thing my reaction to this. As I have said in previous posts I really am afraid of the rejection and it has paused me for the last few months but I am motivated today. 

I will feel a huge sense of relief when they are out and no longer in my hands. When the move is in their courts then there will be nothing else I can do, but hope and pray that if this is meant to be it will be.

Oh how I hope it is meant to be!!

Solomon turned 7

Boston Red Sox....

...made it to the playoffs.

 This makes me happy.

The Yankees didn't.

This makes me even more happy.

Can't wait for Darrell to get traded so then I will feel absolutely no guilt in saying that.

www.ontheissues.org

This is a great website to check out anything and everything on politicians. I have found it to be a really helpful resource when there is so much out there flying around that is so off base. As far as the he said, she said game is concerned this site might help you decide for yourself.

Just thought I would say this is a site that even my professors are okay with so you know it's got to be good then.  :)

One Month and I am still standing by my man Obama

First about the debates last night if Sarah Palin winks one more time at me to try and get my vote I think Moses might actually start getting jealous.

That's pretty much all I have to say about that.  

The debate was interesting to say the least.  Biden just had the ultimate trump card on his hands which is that he has just been in this politicians game a bit longer. 

Okay enough about the VP's who really don't do a whole bunch anyways and so why all the fuss? Well because again when you know you can't win on your own pull in a woman !! Still think this was McCain's attempt to play chess and Sarah Palin is his pawn.

Ask me how I really feel?

Okay here's how I really feel-

Things I really like about Obama;

-First of all I just like him. I believe in him. I believe that he really is going to try to do these things that he is saying he will put his hand to. 

-I like that he himself makes fun of his name and has a good sense of humor about it all. I like that he is very aware of the times in which we live and knows that even in this day and age there will be those who will simply not vote for him because of his name. He is risking his life to be our next President, very much a risk for him and still is not afraid.

- I like the fact that after he graduated from Harvard Law and had jobs lined up and ready to be given to him on Wall Street that would have paid much more money, he turned this down to serve in a way that he knew would help the greater good. This is selfless. If he was after the big bucks and a career the choices he made right out of law school should prove to you that he was not concerned about his own pocket book as much as he was for that of his fellow man.

-He will not raise my taxes or anyone who is not making 250,000 or less a year.

-He will eliminate taxes for most Seniors that I know and probably that you know. These are people that we should be looking out for in this next election. By voting for a president that will put money back in the pockets of those that have gone before us is just one way I think I can help them in the last years. This is having  respect for my elders.

-He will give me a tax break of up to 1,ooo dollars right away when elected. I could use a break.

-He will start a fast track plan to resource energy here in America so that we are no longer so dependent on foreign oil. This will drastically change my life and yours because paying at the pump will go down quite bit.

Things you should reconsider -

- If you think or heard that he is a Muslim and believe this- HE IS NOT

- If you think his plan for medical reform will dump our health care industry on it's head- IT WILL NOT

- If you think he is 'the' most liberal democratic president elect we have had, HE IS NOT

- If you are afraid of him because he is so different- HE IS NOT 

-If you think he is unpatriotic because he didn't raise his hand to salute the flag- HE IS NOT

Things you should know for sure about him-

He could have chosen to many things in his young 40 something life.  For the next 8 years he could have been building his career in law and making much more money than what he would be making in the White House. He could be safe and sound untouched by the prejudice that still runs wild in this country. He could be in Chicago not allowing the world at large to criticise and scrutinize his nationality or his faith but instead he has chosen this moment now to serve. 

He will serve as true voice in Washington that has not been sold out or been bought out by lobbyist expecting favors in return. He is the real deal.

The economy and my thoughts

I find our present financial economy so interesting right now. Listening to the powers that be about this market and where it is at, how it got there, and how to get out of it is so interesting. It isn't as though we all just ended up here blindly and without warning. I find it interesting that the brokers and real estate agents who were making so much money off the economy a few years back are now blaming the president for all of this. So interesting to me is that not one person has stood up and taken responsibility for their own actions in all of this. It really does remind me of a kindergarten class room where when asked who made the mess everybody starts pointing the finger. Are there no grown adults in Washington and abroad who will say, WE took advantage of a people who were already broken and down hearted and now we are paying the price for it? I wouldn't be at all surprised if there isn't more anarchy where houses and credit cards are concerned. Why shouldn't the people who were given mortgages that have now dropped over 100,000 dollars in the last year just walk out on them and never own another home again. I wouldn't trust anyone again either if this were my situation. Why shouldn't those whose lives have been turned upside down by all of this mess not finally say, You know maybe I don't need the government to come up with a bailout plan for my life, why don't I just take matters into my own hands. 

I think there is only more to come where all this is concerned. The powers that be in this country have finally broke us as far their philosophy of bigger better is concerned, and now is anyone thinking about what they want to buy their kids for Christmas? Let's see , I can't wait to go into dept to feed this materialistic monster once again. I highly doubt it!!

I for one am excited that it's broken, our economy was never one that I fully bought into to anyways. I am not saying that I didn't buy into to it from time to time but if I really bought into it well, then I suppose it would be evident by the car I drive and the house I live in.

How about this for a try, contentment.

My S.O.S.

I am completely swamped with school, work, and not to mention the life I had before all this business of getting a job and going back to school began. How do people do this seriously? Oh yeah that's right they don't have a social life. Well, sorry life is just too short and there are some things I am not willing got give up and my social life is one of them. What is life for if not for the social aspect of it ? But, this is what happens when you don't give that up,Every time I sit down I go into what I like to call a coma-like slumber, drool and all. My refigerator has never looked so barren cause I just don't have time to make a big grocery store trip, my back yard looks like a bomb went off because no one is even aware in this family that we have a back yard, let's not even get into the laundry situation going on around here. So this would be what's known as an SOS , HELP!! I feel as though I am drowning and there is no life vest in sight. 

Hey what does SOS stand for??

LOVE/HATE

I love the feeling of fresh clean sheets

I hate the feeling of the mattress if the sheet happens to come off it's appropriate corner.

I love the feeling of bringing in some money now.

I hate the feeling of having to go to work when I would rather stay home and play.

I love the feeling of fall in the air.

I hate the feeling of knowing this means soon I will have so many leaves to pick up and not enough time to pick them all up before my neighbor starts placing them back in my yard :(

I love the feeling of driving in my VW bug.

I hate the feeling of smelling gas in said bug because there is a gas leak :o

I love the feeling of making a great cup of coffee.

I hate the feeling of knowing that we ran out of creamer and now my next cup won't be as good.

I love the feeling of looking around and seeing all my husbands artwork on the walls.

I hate the feeling of knowing that I want to nag him to finish some more, like he is an art factory.

I love the feeling of a Saturday morning, with cartoons in the backround, cereal being eaten and relaxing taking place.

I hate the feeling of only getting one a week.

Super Powers and Isaiah

Isaiah is convinced that he has super powers.

Seriously the boy thinks he can fly.

He thinks that he can talk to strangers and not get hurt, of this he told me today while reading Little Red Riding hood and we all know the point of that story is to warn kids not to talk to strangers. Well, this little boy doesn't seem to think that the big, bad wolf would harm him because he has super powers.

He doesn't need to sleep , eat, or do anything that would be known as good for him because "He has super powers"

It's like this;

ME- Isaiah eat  your lunch

Z- I don't need to eat lunch mom I have super powers

ME- Isaiah don't jump off of that

Z- I can mom because I have super powers

Last week he was on top of the tree house and I said, "Isaiah don't jump off of there again or you will get a timeout"  To which he said, "Mom you are just saying that because you just don't want me to waste any of my super powers, right?"

Well, I laughed. 

Wouldn't you? (Note to upcoming parents never let 'em see you laugh or it's all over.)

Ever since then though I have noticed he has not only been given an inch with that laugh it's gone well over a mile now.

Well, I need to figure out a creative way to let this kid know that his powers are going to be gone soon when I kick his little super power butt for not listening to his MOTHER!!

GO BO SOX'S NATION

On deck we have-

1. Isaiah smirks at Tampa Bay and has guns loaded.

2. Next shot, this  batter is up.

3. And finally Pirates in the Bo Sox's Nation, we say Arrgh Matey!!

So my hat idea didn't work but I do believe it is the reason for 14 FREAKIN INNINGS!! 

Just to be on the safe side

I may be a bit on the superstitious side here, and in jeopardy of making you all think that I am a complete and total heathen but here goes; 

Last night while at my Health and Nutrition class I wore my lucky Bo Sox's hat just to represent and mostly cause I was wishing I could have been there as previously posted instead of at TMCC. They won the game. 

Tonight I had labs for the above mentioned class and again was not able to watch the game but in my hurry to get out the door and also because I was having a good hair day I did not wear my hat. They lost the game.

Tomorrow night just to be on the safe side I will be wearing my hat. 

Hey, don't judge me. The disciples cast lots.

GO BO SOX'S !!!

Oh to be in Fenway tonight around 7p.  

 A girl can dream right? 

I believe I deserve this post because I really haven't said much all season but don't be surprised if my boys beat those dried up and tan boys from Florida. 

LOVE / HATE

I love the feeling of taking off fake fingernails and feeling my fingertips again.

I hate the feeling of being too full and eating until it hurts.

I love the feeling of my body after Yoga and not necessarily during it.

I hate the feeling of sticking my hand down the sink to unstick the garbage disposal.

I love the feeling of my dogs soft ears and their dusty, not stinky smell.

I hate the feeling of being anxious over homework unfinished.

I love the feeling of getting in my comfy jammies at the end of the day.

I hate the feeling of waking up only to feel like you just fell asleep.

I love the feeling of my children's arms wrapped around my waist.

I hate the feeling of my waist that has been expanding.

I love the feeling of being older in that I am no longer striving for as much.

I hate the feeling of being older especially the way my knee feels from being bent for too long.

I have more loves and hates but that is all I can think of for now.

A Dream Job

I got a job that pays in cash!! You know because I have a job that pays in hugs and kisses right now , but a  second job that pays cash is what I've  got now. I am now the proud employee of It's A Grind coffee shop on McCarran and Prater.  I have not worked outside of the house since we moved to Reno except for a little stint with Little Lites Preschool when it was getting up and running, but other than that I have been in a bubble otherwise known as my home. I would like to say that I was extremely blessed to be home all those years, but I am so ready to get back out in the real world.

So if you are in Sparks, looking for a coffee stop other than Starbuck's check It's A Grind coffee shop out. I might just be there serving up your cup a joe with a smile.

This job has always been on my list of dream jobs.  I have a list of  dream  jobs that I would like to work in my lifetime. Does anyone else have this type of list? It's kinda like the list of books you plan to read in  your life. On my list of dream jobs I also would like to work before I die is; An airline stewardess, a waitress, a makeup artist, a back up singer for Celine Dion, A kindergarten teacher, an "published" author, a restaurant owner, and a grandma someday way in the future.

I would be interested to hear what your dream jobs are. I know I have quite a few but hey, I am young and that is a lot of years to fill.

Burning Man is Over, know how I can tell???

The burners down the street have made the migration home and are dirtying up my street once again. Can't wait to hear from my friends how this years events went down. At least they didn't have an early bird ruin their show this time like last year so that's good. You would not believe how many dirty RV's and cars, vans, and other modes of transportation were parked up and down our street this morning. When I brought the kids to school they said, "Looks like the burning man people have come back".  Ya think!!

This is what I found myself wondering , How do they clean everything? Seriously, the thought of how dirty everything comes back is reason enough for me not to ever want to go. I wonder how long it takes the burners to clean up all that stuff. 

So the Burning man youth hostile looks quite full right now and I do believe they must be having some kind of clean up after party going on over there because it is quite busy.

Palin's Pregnant daughter

I just the find the media so interesting. When talking about Palin's daughter who is young and pregnant they refer to this as though she has some kind of disease, "It is an unfortunate situation that any of us could find ourselves in" "She is handling this situation so graciously for how big of a disappointment it must be".  Just think when that baby is older someday and going over video footage of when Grandma (almost) became Vice President they will wonder, "I thought they said they wanted me?"  Seriously, people put your money where your mouth is and stop talking about this baby like it's a plague or something. 

I feel really bad for Palin's 5 children all of which are now the topic for debate. What a crazy world we live in.

Can I just say though that her names for her children, SO COOL!! hee hee hee.

Blonde

On my list of things to do in this life-

Become a Blonde- Check!!

I will let you all know if I start having more fun or can no longer understand simple instructions :)