Letter To The Lover of My Soul

Lover Of My Soul

Remember when I said I wouldn't forget. 

I forgot.

Remember when I said I will never do that.

I did.

Remember when I said you will always come first.

I am, Most days.

Remember when I said I know.

I don't.

Remember when I said please heal me.

You did.

Remember when I said please give me.

You gave.

Remember when I said show me.

You have. 

Remember when I said I am sorry.

You Forgave.

I love YOU.

Love Letter #3

Dear Lover of My Soul,

I haven't written to you for a while so I thought I would make up for it by making this letter rather long. I hope you don't mind. I just wanted to take a moment and tell you how much I love you, and why. There are not enough words in the dictionary to describe to you how deep my love for you is, but I want to try to tell you the things that come to mind when I think about why I love you so much.
I love how patient you are with me. Despite my selfishness, and continual bad habits you have been patient. In fact, more than being patient you have been kind when I have been rotten to you. So kind it makes me want to cry for how I have treated you in the past. You never envy me when my life is going so great. When I am happy you are happy with me. In fact when I have taken credit where it should have been given to you for a job that I was only able to accomplish because of you, You didn't envy me. You didn't go boast to your friends, "Hey I did that!" You weren't proud about how when you first met me, I was such a mess. So gross. So tainted even at the young age of 13, you had to pull me out from all that. But never, ever in all the years that I have known you, you have never been proud about what you did for me. You don't hold it over my head. You have let me forget what I used to be. You loved me then. You love me now. You have never been rude to me. There are so many times that I have been So rude, disrespectful, maybe even acted out in a temper tantrum of hate, toward you. But I wasn't met with rudeness, or a cold shoulder. You never seem to care that I do these things, but I know you do. I know I have hurt you, but you have never been self-seeking in revenge. It seems as though you never get angry, or at least you are not easily angered by my behavior. Thank you for never bringing up my past mistakes. You have kept no record of my bratty behavior. When I am being a hater or evil in my thoughts, actions, words, you are quiet. And when you are quiet I know you are not happy or rejoicing in these evils, but when I happy with myself, being kind, loving others, nice to strangers, or getting it right so to speak, living out truth... well that's when I really know you are so happy. I see you quietly shouting, "Yes, Yes!" "Way to Go Noel!" "That's my brown eyed girl" I see you rejoicing in that truth, your truth, that is now my truth, truth.
Thank you for always protecting me. I sleep sweet at night because of this. Your protection is like no other strong man I know. It's like a bubble. Funny, but true, I feel like I walk in a bubble of your protection all the time.
Thank you for trusting me with this life of love and devotion to you. Your trust in me baffles me. I can't ever imagine why in a million years you would trust me of all people with your love. I am not worthy.
The hope you have in me, for my future, well it's truly what gets me out of bed in the morning.
Your perseverance in our relationship is astounding. I would have given up on us a long time ago, but you... you always persevere.
You have never, and THIS I KNOW... you will never fail me.

For all of this, and so much more I love you, with a love that doesn't even come close to the love you have shown me.

You are truly the LOVER OF MY SOUL.

I love you,
Noel


1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Love Letter #2

Remember when you sent that really cute, very old man up my street?
He was just waiting by my address sign.
As a bonus you sent him with his beautiful baby girl, great grandchild.
Remember when you had his parents name him Gregory because you knew that would make me know it was from you.
Those are the moments only you can orchestrate, and that's why I love you.
Remember when he was standing there listening to the sound of the creek.
That sound that I get to listen to now everyday.
You really know how to show me that you love me.

Love Letters #1

Thank you for the that perfect, divine moment.
Where you sang to me through the voice of Josh Groban.
When you made the fog so thick that it made me slow down.
In a car alone with a moment to breath deeply.
After I was feeling like no one knew my name, you sang it out.
Sigh.
Thank you for that.