a peace that surpasses all understanding that I've been fortunate enough to experience since I was around 13 years old.
Almost 30 years later since this relationship began I have come to wonder why this awesome gift I was given, I often times take for granted.
I decided that for this season of Lent I don't want to take away something, but rather add a new determined purpose to my life.
With my heart full of so many emotions, so many ambitions, so many out pouring actions, I'm reminded once again to fill my cup, to fill my well first.
I'm going back to the basics of watering my well.
When I reconnect to the rapture of life and fully living it, I'm reminded that my well needs watering.
"And if a desire to serve humanity or to find God comes from a rapturous engagement with life , then our service and our search will bear fruit. But if we try to love or lead, or work or pray, from a dry well, then we will serve a bitter cup to those around us and never really live the life we were given. "
Oh that I would never serve from a bitter, and empty cup.
There is something to be said about people who are so full of joy all the time.
It exudes from their being.
You can feel it when they walk into a room.
It changes the temperature of said room.
The same can be said of a person that walks around with a bitter, angry, and sad heart.
You know it isn't their fault.
Some are grieving a loss that they haven't fully processed yet.
Then there are those that have the victim mentality.
They just can't seem to get past the pain that we all endure in the course of a lifetime.
I will never truly understand why the portions of pain and joy are not poured out equally or fairly in this life.
Still, there are those unique souls who have been given a double portion of pain, and they manage to pour forth joy everywhere they go.
They are like the mythical unicorns in this life.
It takes great effort and determination to move past the pains that a lifetime can serve us.
I think there is a lot of therapy involved in that effort too.
There is no wonder why some people decide to take the turtle approach and just retreat from fully living.
More often than not I think I'm more like a turtle than a unicorn.
To truly love and live a life of love you have to experience pain.
I believe the more you love the more pain you might experience.
Those that have the lion hearts are the ones that know this, and still continue to roar with joy.
Ok so maybe they are a lion unicorn type creature. (wink wink)
I wonder sometimes how those that roar with joy, love, and passion for life, how do they fill their cups so that they don't become bitter from the hard times?
The truth is that every single human that has walked this planet has felt the sting of pain.
Life has more stings than a hive of bumble bees on a hot July day!
But how do we heal those wounds and move forward to go back out and enjoy that warm sunshine of life again?
I don't really know the answers for you to those questions beloved reader, but I can say that for me what helps me to be in forward motion is a direct dial up number to the lover of my soul.
My therapy is found at the feet of a great counselor.
One that never judges me for the times that I retreat to my turtle shell.
In this relationship I find a soothing balm that helps the stings of life fade away.
I recently read that if you break down the word COMFORT it looks like;
Come and Fort.
That's what I do to get built back up again.
I come and fort at the source of living water.
He fills this well to overflowing every time and brings a comfort to my weary soul.
" You can serve your God without being so uptight about it. You can feel the simple rapture of being alive and let that rapture be your North Star. "
My hearts desire is that I would serve from a cup that overflows with joy.
That even in the hard times I would have a song in my heart and an encouraging word for my fellow travelers here.